I see a giant cloud at my window, as if all the clouds in the sky have sowed up together. My hair is a mess and I haven't slept much these few days. The T.V is still on in the other room to keep me company. It's dark in my room and I've switched on a small desk lamp. And I'm bored. Bored of everything, already. It's quite sad actually. I feel like I have to do something with my life, something more than just stand here like a complete idiot. I'm just a dumb-ass teenager, sel-centred , with a huge lack of self-confidence. And even if by some miracle and huge effort I become nicer, it won't change a fucking thing, will it? I'll still be standing here like a dumb-ass. One thing left to do, and either I do it, either I just continue being a dumb-ass forever. LIVE. Really. Stop being affraid of everything all the damn time. Do stuff I wanna do, and stop restraining myself.